Skola

I was at the producer today. It was an okay meeting. Only for the free Cola.

The situations are like this. I’m made for being a star. And know they are saying that I need to change me to be a star. Are they serious? I know I’m not perfect. Are someone that? They told me that we can make you a star. If you lose weight and get bigger boobs. It must be a joke. I mean the weight problem can I be okay whit. A few pounds are okay. But come on, bigger boobs. I don’t wont pain in my back and they make good bras. So push up won’t be a problem.

 I mean they think that I am fabulous. The problem is that I am to fat and have to small boobs. It’s like selling your soul to the devil. They make you look like a fantastic person, but you are fake. That’s not me. I do not wear makeup even, only at parties. Sometimes in school but not often. I don’t like spending time in making me look lovely. I am how I am. And that’s it. There will be someone who accepts me for the person I am. And they will love it.

If I can’t be a star it’s going to be sad. I am going to be sad. But what can you do. You want people to love you for the person you are. And I’m not fake.

So I say NO. I don’t to be anyone but me. But there are those days when I will regret it. The day when you feel horrible, disgusting and thing like that. Only think of how very much I would hate myself if I changed in me. That’s not very good at all.

I really want to love myself and I want everyone boy and girl to love himself and herself. And it hard, but it can be worth it.

So no to people how want to change you.

Love Annie